Beauty

I like beauty. I think that is a good thing and I think God likes beauty as well. He created everything, afterall. I think I find some of the most beauty in this world through dance. I love to watch a beautiful lyrical routine. It just makes sense to me. The thing that stinks is that I was never the dancer I could have been. I did not put in extra effort outside of practice and did not treat my body the way a dancer should. That is one of my biggest regrets in life, that I had many opportunities in front of me and I blew it due to my lack of discipline.

In the past year I have had some interesting things prayed over. Two times I have been told that God was going to accelerate me this year. So far, that has not happened. I also had someone tell me that I had an annointing. I do not know what the annointing is and I find it very hard to believe that God would give me an annointing, but He does have a sense of humor.

It's June

It's so funny how our mindsets can change in a mere matter of weeks. Here are just a few revelations I have had since my previous two posts:

1) I have always found myself in my schedule. The busier I am, the more important I feel. It is time to let go of that. I need to find myself in God, not in my schedule.

2) When I die, noone will care how long it took David and I to pay off our credit cards. Noone will care the brand of sofa I bought. The only thing that will matter is the way I loved people. I can not love people the way God intended if I am working all the time, sleep deprived, hating my body because I did not have time to work out, and completely stressed.

3) There is nowhere I would rather be than with David.

4) My three priorities in life are: God, David, and my health. My job is not in those top 3, so that says something. Those three things have to be my top priority every day.

5) I need a job that forces me to grow, not one that I can do so simply. What that means, I do not know. Does God want me to learn more here before moving on? Should I plan on moving on anytime in the near future? Would Vineyard WestSide be a good fit for me?

Anywho, that is where I have gotten in the past few weeks. I feel that I have learned a lot about myself and think that I will be pushed to grow even more. Discipline is something that I will need to work on as I need to have focused quiet time, devotions with David, gym time, and healthy eating habits.

God has put some wonderful friends in my life that have helped me to grow and I know will continue to push me. Lord, please make me more like You.